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Eye of the Storm — One-on-One Integration

You've already
seen too much.
Now what?

The strings. The emptiness. The moment everything died and only breath remained.

Now ordinary life feels like a bad joke and normal meditation bores the shit out of you.

This is not stress relief. This is not another technique to feel calm for three days then crash. This is learning to stay present inside the cyclone — using the only thing that actually held when your world ended: your own breath.

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Is this for you

This work is for you if

This is not for people looking for relaxation techniques, general life coaching, or a sympathetic ear. If that's what you need right now, I'll tell you directly and point you somewhere better.
The approach

How we work together

I'm not here to fix you or sell you constant bliss. I've been through the mask, the overthinking, the rock bottom, the shit barrel of diagnoses and meds, the monk-level overdoing, and the slow return to a breath-centered steadiness that actually holds in real life.

We use the breath as the main anchor. Not as another technique to perform — as a quiet friend you get to know. I'll guide you through the same kind of curious observing I eventually landed on after burning out in robes.

Sessions are a mix of listening, direct inquiry, and practical exploration. We might map how your breath behaves today, go deliberately into the scary guts together, or work with the patterns and strings in real time.

Between sessions you use the free library as simple homework when you want it. No rigid daily practice required.

This is coaching, not therapy. I'm trauma-informed by lived experience, but if deeper clinical work is needed I'll say so and refer you. Sessions are online, usually 60–75 minutes.

The arc

What the sessions cover

1
Mapping
The puppet strings
Your current repeating loops, emotional blackmail patterns, the "I married my mother this morning" recognitions. We name what's running without drama.
2–3
Confrontation
Breath as confrontation
We go deliberately into the scary guts together. Not relaxation. Real presence with teeth. The breath as the thread that doesn't break.
4
Integration
Living in normal life
How the fuck do you live in ordinary life when you see everyone — including yourself — as puppets? Practical answers, not philosophy.
5–6
Anchoring
Making the calm voluntary
Making the deep calm state voluntary. Catching your own strings in real time. Standing active in the eye of the cyclone by choice, not accident.
Investment

Clear pricing

Single session
$170
60–75 min
For when you want to try the approach before committing to a package. One focused session, one clear outcome.
4-Session Integration Path
$597
4 sessions · spaced 2–3 weeks
The real starting point. Enough time to map the patterns, go into the guts, and begin actual integration. Most people start here.
6-Session Deep Anchor Path
$847
6 sessions · spaced 2–3 weeks
For deeper work — when the territory is complex, the patterns are stubborn, or you want real time to make the calm voluntary and lasting.

Payment plans available — 2 or 3 payments, just ask.

Limited sliding scale spots for those in genuine financial need. Be honest about it and I'll be honest back.

No endless monthly retainers. We work until the breath becomes your anchor. Then you're done — or we restart when life hits again.

Who I am

Why I can stand with you there

8
Years as a Theravada monk
Ordained in Thailand. Not a retreat — a life. Including four years supporting acute addiction detox at Wat Thamkrabok, where the breath was sometimes the only thing between a person and total collapse.
6
Languages of practice
Thai, French, English, Tahitian Māori, Japanese, Laotian. Traditions lose precision in translation. Working in your language — or the language closest to your experience — changes what's possible.
DVM
Veterinary medicine + Kyoto University
A scientific framework for what the contemplative traditions describe. No mystification. No performance. Just what the body actually does and what you can do about it.
First step

Apply for a free discovery session

Fill in a short application — seven questions, five minutes. I read every one. If we're a match, I send you the booking link directly. If not, I'll tell you straight and point you somewhere better.

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